Him

I want a Raoul from Phantom of the Opera.

Someone strong and gentle and good.

Someone to guide me and listen and respect me.

To love me as the woman I am.

I know I am not ready for such a powerful love...


But I want it to start developing now.

But then, when I think of it further, finding a friend who is him and all that jazz, it doesn't sound right.

I just want what I told my friend a few days ago.

I want someone to be interested with me, and for me to be interested in them.

For both of us to acknowledge this and to realize that we cannot pursue such a connection until we are both ready.

I want it to be so comfortable with him... that it would be like coming home.

That's what I truly want.

To realize how comfortable I am with someone and be okay with not being with them in that way until we're married.

I want him to be strong.

To know his limits and be comfortable with himself.

To know his Father is real and to believe in the Gospel.

I know my family and friends love me, I do not need his love because I know I already have it...

I just... hope he is okay.

I hope he is becoming who Father has always intended him to be.

I hope he knows that he is loved by a girl who hasn't even met him on this earth yet.

I hope he knows what I am learning.

I hope he has learned to be strong and good.

So if you ever find this out there, whoever you are, I hope you know all of this.

Know that even when it seems there is only Father with you, I am there, too.

And I love you with more of my heart as could be given.

And I know we are bound with more than just this world.

And I know that you are a good man, a sweet man, a wonderful man.

And even if you don't think so, it doesn't matter, because you will be.


I love you, whoever you are.